The Last Day of my Last Fat Year

It has probably become apparent with the frequency & the topic of my recent updates here that I am gearing up to return to physical fitness. This is possibly the most talked about, blogged about & google searched topic right now.
Tomorrow is a new year. I'm not pregnant, not getting pregnant and, while I will still be recovering from my most recent c-section; I am so close to being able to begin a fitness regimine that I will be slowly working up to it over the next few weeks. And my goal is to be more fit than I've ever been before when New Year's Ever 2012 rolls around.
So even though the timing would suggest this is my resolution for the New Year, the fact is that this is my resolution for my life. I resolve to be healthy & fit regardless of what life, the universe, my kids, whatever has in store for me. For the rest of my life.
Who's with me?

Presence the Positive

One of the most important aspects of getting fit is:

~PRESENCE THE POSITIVE~

What that means to me is that when I look at myself, when I weigh myself, when I talk about myself I will talk about the positive things I think, see & feel.
For example; instead of talking about my weight "loss" I will talk about the weight released. Instead of seeing the distance I still have to go when I look in the mirror I will rejoice in the distance I've already come. Instead of telling myself how terrible my food choices were at the end of a day I will think about the good, healthy food choices I will make the next.
This is one of the things I know I can do to assist myself in reaching the goals I have set for myself. When I presence the positive I KNOW I am a beautiful, fit, healthy woman!

Rewards for meeting goals

I think I've talked about this before but I want to revisit the topic of rewarding myself for meeting either fitness or weight release goals.
I was doing so good for such a long time that when I hit my plateau (before getting pregnant again) that it was difficult for me to hold myself to my resolution of only rewarding myself for meeting my goals. So now I'm looking for a new reward system that I will actually hold myself to.
Should I make it that each 20 pounds released will be a small shopping spree? Because 20 pounds is a clothing size or two and I know that baggy clothes do NOT camouflage the fat~they just make me look fatter! Or will I stick to it if I resolve to only get pedicures when I've released the 20 pounds? What about getting a message once I reach my pre AJ pregnancy weight? Maybe reward myself with FINALLY using that Dolce spa gift card and have a spa day once I'm back under 200 pounds?
I still have the goal of getting that Coach bag that I've talked about a few times. What goal will THAT be the reward for? Maybe when I'm out of double digit pants size? That is something I've never done before (I was getting close before I lost my will power or whatever it was last year) and I really want both~pants that have a single digit for the size AND that GORGEOUS Coach bag!
What kind of rewards are you planning for yourself? (in case I want to steal your ideas)

Starting over from scratch

Well, it's been some time since I've posted here. Not long after my last update I got pregnant with my newest little girl (and most likely last child). So she's here now, I'm 18 days postpartum and I gained a RIDICULOUS amount of weight. I'm pretty sure it was 85 lbs. I've lost 35 lbs already, having a nearly 10 lb baby and a TON (like 25 lbs) of water weight will do that though. Unfortunately I'm still over 250 lbs~SO not cool.
Anyway, because I had a c-section I get to wait until I'm 4 weeks postpartum to begin working out again. And when I do start working out again I get to start slow and build up. Otherwise I risk reopening my incision or something like that. Cool right? So for now my goal is to walk every day for the next couple weeks until I get to 4 weeks postpartum and to watch what I eat. I'm going for high protein and from getting my carbs from fruits, veggies and whole grains.
I haven't had the courage to take a picture of my train wreck body yet but when I do I will share it. This time around my goal for my blog is to update 3 times a week and full disclosure...and that includes the progress pictures, no matter how horrifying I find them to be.
So, follow along with me while I journey to find my perfect (read:healthiest) body. I know it's in here somewhere...